Cleaning House; November 29 2023

Hoo boy. Holiday season be upon ye.

Between recovering from surgery, helping one of my roommates move out any way I can, appointment after appointment after appointment, and your good old-fashioned chronic illness, I’ve been absolutely beat. I’m exhausted.

I haven’t been writing as much as I’d planned at the beginning of November, but I also kind of expected that I wouldn’t. I’ve made my peace with it, cut myself some slack.

I’m actually really looking forward to December. Once November’s over with, a lot of things should settle, and I’m going to try to get everything back into some kind of working order. Especially my apartment, because…

Well. Y’know. What do you get when you put four disabled adults and a five year old together?

You get a messy house, that’s what.

I’m writing this blog post to kind of turn towards y’all to see if you can help make my holiday wish come true. I desperately want to hire a cleaning service for a day. Kind of reset the apartment to make upkeep feasible again. Right now, every room is a mess – it’s all clutter, but that honestly bothers me less than my inability to clean around the clutter. I want clean floors. I want the dust and grime gone.

If you’re not familiar with ‘spoon theory’, here’s the gist: It was a term coined by blogger Christie Miserandino, used to explain what living with chronic illness is like. There’s a great article about it here. Go read that.

Okay, you read it? Good. So, it takes up all my spoons just to get one room into properly clean conditions, and then I’m burned out. I need days to recover those spoons.

By the time I’ve recovered, the room’s a mess again. I’m Sisyphus and the boulder. Constantly pushing, making progress, and then the boulder rolls back down and I’m back where I started.

I’ve set a new goal on my ko-fi, so if you’re able to contribute to it (or share it around), I’d be hugely appreciative.

… Man, I just got really depressed over how often I use this blog to ask for help. One good book deal, and I wouldn’t have to do that anymore (at least, that’s the goal).

Either way, bring on December!